“Ask, and it
shall be given to you; seek, and ye shall find it; knock, and it shall be
opened onto you.” This is definitely not what the priest just said. He probably
said that everyone was a sinner and we all sinned to some degree in our lives.
He probably also mentioned original sin. Why would Adam and Eve eat the
fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, which God had forbidden?
She was at Mass
at Notre-Dame Basilica. It was in French. Messe en françai... She couldn’t
understand a word, but she followed Mass. It incorporated so many different
elements: procession of the priest and his attendants to the altar, Bible
readings, prayers, hymns accompanied by the organ, symbols and gestures.
How many times did she stand up and sit down?
Earlier,
the tour lady told the story of James O'Donnell, an Irish American Anglican architect from New York City. He moved to Montreal to build the Basilica from 1823-1829.
The architect was so moved by the outcome that he converted to Catholicism. Was
that the real reason? He is the only person
buried in the crypt of the Basilica.
She
sat on the wooden bench and wondered how many had sat there before her. Why did
she stay for Mass after the tour? She needed time to herself. The last six
months were chaotic. They were filled with many events and many people. They
were filled with people’s love, but also with their small and big dramas. She
didn’t want to comfort people anymore. She wanted to move on in her life
without justifying her decisions to others. She sat on the wooden bench
savouring the moment of temporary peace.
In
one week she would leave behind the togetherness. She would leave behind a
place of strong bonds. She would leave behind a place of fond memories. She
loved those she would be leaving behind. Together they used to float like
shining stars, circles and spirals in their unique universe. She was ready to
leave the familiar universe. She was ready to spread her wings and fly to
another unknown universe.
The
priest consecrated the bread. Did it really become the body of Christ? People
sitting next to each other stood up and shook their hands. They looked
genuinely happy. Soon everybody lined up to receive a piece of sacramental
bread from the priest. Would she qualify to receive Communion? She was not of
Catholic faith or any other faith, but she felt authentic grace for life at
that moment. When she approached the priest, he said something in French,
probably “the body of Christ”. She hold out her hands and received a round,
thin piece of holy bread. She said “Amen” and ate it. Did she just eat the body
of the Lord?
She
left the basilica feeling renewed. She knew that in one week her life would
become more perilous, but it would also become more and more interesting. She
remembered her favourite passage from Eat,
Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert: “Virginia Woolf wrote, ‘Across the broad continent of a woman's
life falls the shadow of a sword.’ On one side of that sword, she said, there
lies convention and tradition and order, where all is correct. But on the other
side of that sword, if you're crazy enough to cross it and choose a life that
does not follow convention, ‘all is confusion.’ Nothing follows a regular
course. Her argument was that the crossing of the shadow of that sword may
bring a more interesting existence to a woman, but you can bet it will be more
perilous.” More interesting, but more perilous...
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